I need to write… I need to rant… I need to vent…

But I really shouldn’t… just breathe… just breathe…

I’ve felt anxious and on edge all day… sick with worry…

I’m just tired of getting lied to… getting bulls******… getting treat like a mug…

Getting told what they think I want to hear and that is it… no follow through then dismissal…

I beg… just stop messing with me… this is how it feels…

I don’t deserve it…

I have such a good weekend… and all it takes is for one incident when I am like this to totally ruin all the good mood vibes I’d built up…

I’m just fucking sick of it… sick of it all…