How is everything of late?

Manageable… it hasn’t been the most difficult of crashes but I am really doing everything that I can to not be putting myself in situations that I’ll find difficult…  I’m also forcing myself to take the medication early which results in an early night… yeah I miss an hour or two of chill time but making sure I don’t have a breakdown like last Christmas is what this is all about…

I just cannot afford to have another period like that…

I’m currently living in a hotel whilst I get my flooring done. Duration will be hopefully no more than two weeks… I thought that I may find this hard – the whole changing of the routine and restricting myself to what I can do would normally be really difficult but for now the novelty factor is seeing me through… this will probably change once the novelty wears off but I’m not thinking about that yet.

Work is fine; I’m not struggling or having any issues. Money is obviously difficult but I’m just trying to make it through the months as best as I can… that’s all that one can do…

I’m a bit “flat” but that is to be expected, I’m not really finding happiness or joy at the moment… life just feels like… hmm… a process at the minute.

It’s all about just getting on with the job at hand… survival… if this is the way that I need to live whilst on a crash then so be it… as long as I’m not breaking down I guess I’ll take it…