It has certainly been a while since I last updated…

Why is that?

I simply have nothing in me at the moment, no drive, no motivation, no creativity… no spark… it’s all gone…

I am just living life as it comes, day by day with no long term plans or goals at the minute…

I’ve had a difficult time at work lately and received some news which will have a massive knock on effect for the coming year…

It’s just sapped me of everything … I’m pretty much fucked for the upcoming year with no way out unless I win the lottery… there is nothing I can do…

And it’s left me feeling totally lost… and head fucked…

I feel like a different person as I type this… something less than what I was…

I feel broken…

I’m just trying to get on with my life, keep my head down but it has made everything such a struggle… it’s been a long time since life was this difficult…