So maybe I spoke too soon last time about afternoons improving…

Today was a pain in the ass day with the transport problems across the city, after a three hour journey in to work which left me frustrated, I ended up chewing a little on the morning… I kinda knew the day would go down hill from there…

This afternoon was spent at war with myself, chewing away having the whirlwind start up, it wasn’t pretty…

When it came to home time, I was wrapped up in the battle getting more and more frustrated with everything going on… what got me though was that it was irrational levels of frustration that was going on… I was a walking HULKSMASH… how I managed to keep cool on the way home is beyond me…

I got home and I’ve just had to bunker down, turn off from the world… my heads spinning and I can’t really focus on anything, I’m just praying that I can fall asleep early tonight and put this day behind me…

It’s just ARGH… especially at the levels I am at, currently… a situation that was out of my hands got me worked up which then led to me chewing on situations of late that have bothered me… it shouldn’t snowball from one to the other… I should be getting better at controlling it but alas, not yet…