Just a quick update that will probably turn into a ramble…
23/01/2017
It was my first day working yesterday – 24th Jan – on the tablets and it went relatively okay.
I was pretty sedated in the morning but comparing that to when I am hyper on a morning and trying to work it was a no contest.
I could think, though it took a little bit of time to put my thoughts into a coherent thought but there was no sat in my own world for two hours trying to grab a thought out of the air…
I’ll take that.
It was an observation that I made on the afternoon that made me decide to write.
It’s funny, when the medication starts to wear off, I can feel the hyper raging in the back ground, it’s still there and present, it just feel like my brain cannot access it or it cannot be bothered to access it.
The more the medication wears off, the more the hyper comes to the fore. I should have took the medication an hour earlier than what I did, by the time I took it I was in a bit of a spin, a bit alert and some irrational thought occured – the first time since I started taking the medication really. I was so sure that I had pushed away a good friend with my antics of late, it terrified me and I couldn’t concentrate.
Once the medication started to settle in I wasn’t too bad though it turned into a difficult night, I didn’t sleep as well as I would like, especially on the medication which leads to today…
25/01/2017
It’s early morning, I am pretty zombie at the minute, more of the meds than off the mood. With not sleeping too well last night, I am really feeling it now.
If I close my eyes I would fall asleep at work. I am just trying to keep myself awake and focusing on the tasks at hand to keep me awake…
Today will be a long day…
I’ve got to ramp up the medication again tonight, 150mg for the first time… that will probably knock me out…
My battle with Bipolar 