16/01/2017

It wasn’t the best of preparation for the day… only four hours sleep…

I was pretty awake though and surprisingly not trapped in a whirlwind when I first woke up…

I was energetic and bouncing around really, I did get the sick stomach lurching moments when I realised that I wouldn’t be seeing my good friend today… It was horrible, so many moments where I thought oh I’ll do this… oh that is right… I cannot, they are not here…

Overall though the day went quickly, much of a blur, I was busy at work and that is good for me when I am like this… when I can concentrate and function anyway…

The second I wasn’t busy or “thinking” I soon started to chew and get wound up…

I couldn’t face taking lunch alone and really did not feel hungry, my appetite lately is non existent so I just sat in a quiet room to myself and tried to slow down a touch…

It helped in a way, an hour of peace let me get under control again to see out the day…

The trouble is… I got through the day okay, got through the night okay – my good friend came over and we had a good chat – but when it comes to sleeping it was non existent.

I gave up trying to sleep after two hours and decided to write this update instead…

Tomorrow if I do not get to sleep any time soon I am going to be well Zombie!!